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A few years back my workplace was targeted for protests by the local IWW chapter because I had fired someone who was a member of said chapter. (This astonished me, because I hadn't even realized that the IWW still existed.) The weeks that followed were full of stress, but looking back (and yes, I realize how memories distort things) the times I am going through now at work are even more stressful. It's ridiculous; I don't even want to come to work most days. Yesterday on FB some people on my feed were sharing around a meme that had the phrase "Complaining about a situation without offering solutions is called WHINING", and my reaction to this was "F YOU". If I knew a solution for my problem I wouldn't be sitting here hoping to come down with food poisoning Monday night; I'd be doing something to make my situation better.

In other news, my garden is in desperate need of weeding. I managed to catch up on laundry big-time last week, so I have some hopes of progress here. Also, I got an email from Robinette Farms this week and my CSA pickup starts at the end of the month. Veggies!

I've been trying to write every night and not getting a lot done. I feel so strung out and tired it's hard to rally my brain into the challenge of getting words lined up in sentences. Also, I lack conviction that it matters. I'm trying to seduce my brain by pointing out that if I use up ink faster I'll have an excuse to buy more colors, but so far that idea lacks traction.

I'm not sure if I'll get to play L5R Monday night. I still haven't found time to sort my cards, and it seems pointless to show up without a new deck. I'm also now wavering about going to KC for the Kotei. It seems like a waste to spend the money to rent a car if I don't have anything decent to play at the tournament. Granted it is an excuse to take two days off of work, but still.

Date: 2014-05-10 11:34 pm (UTC)
yhlee: Moto Maratai and her horse (L5R handle) (Maratai (art by yhlee))
From: [personal profile] yhlee
I'm sorry work sucks right now.

I read somewhere that there are two camps of people listening to other people on problems: the Offer a Shoulder and Just Listen camp, and the Offer a Solution camp, and that these two camps usually manage to talk past each other. I'm sorry you're running afoul of that.



So: if writing will help you feel better, absolutely keep at it. But if writing right now is just making you feel even more drained, it's totally legit to take a vacation. If it helps, say to yourself something like "I will take a break for one week and then come back and write a page" (or whatever). Making the vacation finite might help it feel less like you're falling into a slough of slacking. I think this varies for people, and even within the same people under different circumstances, whether writing is useful as a stress-release/fulfillment valve (?), or whether it becomes an additional stressor.

If you want my vote (ignore if not, of course), go to the Kotei. It sounds like you'd really enjoy the break and I am personally invested in seeing you happy. Do you derive more satisfaction from making your own decks, or is there someone you can hit up for a deck design just for you if you give them a general indication of what you want to play? (You could always take a basic design from someone else and tweak it, which might make things easier.) I mean, I'm totally unuseful for such a task because I don't know the "new" rules, but I bet there are plenty of Facebook L5R peeps who would be happy to help you out.

Date: 2014-05-11 05:17 pm (UTC)
yhlee: Moto Maratai and her horse (L5R handle) (Maratai (art by yhlee))
From: [personal profile] yhlee
Yay decklists!

Sometimes switching it up helps me too! Also, more ACH = good. =)


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