Loser me

[daidoji_gisei]

I don't know what is wrong with me, or even if there is something wrong with me.

In January I decided that there were areas of my life I wanted to improve. I made some lists, decided what to change first (I'm old enough to know I can't change everything at once), and started it. For a few weeks all seemed to be going well, but I've hit a snag. These last two weeks I've been pretty useless; I've managed to get myself to work and that's about it. I'm behind on everything--dish-washing, laundry, housework, gardening, crochet, writing, EVERYTHING.

I got up late this morning and frittered away the day reading the Internet and taking cat-naps. :(

I hate the state of my apartment but when I look at it all I want to do is crawl into bed and hide. I'm running out of clothes, my kitchen is a wreck, my pens and crochet hooks are giving me reproachful looks.

Comments

[yhlee]

I seem to recall, if what we last discussed about work still holds, that you're under a lot of stress.

Scale down. Scale way the hell down. If you're under stress, stick to the absolute basics and necessaries. Pick one thing that's fun. Do that. Pick one or two necessary things for uncluttering the apartment. Do those. Give yourself permission to vegetate. I know. I've been there.

[alashandra]

Yoon has the right of it. Right now, it's overwhelming. Follow Yoon's advice and you'll be all right. Just focus on one thing when you have time.

Winter is a difficult time and you have added stress on top of it. It's okay to take the time you need to recharge, too.