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daidoji_gisei) wrote2007-01-22 01:28 pm
daidoji_gisei) wrote2007-01-22 01:28 pm
The Never-Fail Attitude Adjuster
I was very upset with myself and my life in general yesterday, but my mood picked up last night. This is primarily because last night I was training a new bread baker, which means I was baking bread. I love making bread. Checking the dough while it mixes to see if the flour/water balance is right, watching it rise, the *POOF* sound it makes when you scoop the mass of dough out of the bowl and throw it on to the table, the feel as you cut and shape the individual loves...on and on, bread-making is a delightful process.
And, as usual, my bread came out looking drop-dead gorgeous. I realize that statement shows a certain lack of humility, but even my amazing capacity for low self-esteem has its limits, and that limit is bread.
Also good was the fact that my new baker is doing very well. At one point during the night he exclaimed, "Oh, wait! I need to get my digital camera--I need to show my friends all this beautiful bread we've made!" This is what we call a good omen.
None of the problems I was being bothered by yesterday have gone away, but atm I feel less inclined to something self-destructive as a distraction. I'm still faced with being trapped in my apartment with my mother, but whatever. It's times like this I really wish I had a laptop, so that I could go to a library somewhere and write. Then again, I haven't totally lost my ability to compose longhand so maybe I should do that anyway. Hmm....
And, as usual, my bread came out looking drop-dead gorgeous. I realize that statement shows a certain lack of humility, but even my amazing capacity for low self-esteem has its limits, and that limit is bread.
Also good was the fact that my new baker is doing very well. At one point during the night he exclaimed, "Oh, wait! I need to get my digital camera--I need to show my friends all this beautiful bread we've made!" This is what we call a good omen.
None of the problems I was being bothered by yesterday have gone away, but atm I feel less inclined to something self-destructive as a distraction. I'm still faced with being trapped in my apartment with my mother, but whatever. It's times like this I really wish I had a laptop, so that I could go to a library somewhere and write. Then again, I haven't totally lost my ability to compose longhand so maybe I should do that anyway. Hmm....
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So glad that there's something positive going on for you - hang on in there. *hugs*
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What are your plans for Thursday or Friday day?
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Jesse Says
(Anonymous) 2007-01-23 12:13 pm (UTC)(link)Re: Jesse Says
Re: Jesse Says