Blue Letter

[daidoji_gisei]

I don't know what the cause is--nothing really bad has happened to me in the past 24 hours--but I'm feeling very down today. I feel burned out, or maybe burned up; hollow. (headpiece filled with straw, alas....) I am acutely conscious that I spend my days trying to do difficult things for people who will never appreciate it, because I don't meet their standard of perfection, I am not one of the cool kids, I will never be thin, pretty, and blonde (OK, I could be blonde, but I'm too lazy to keep up with the roots properly), I'm not getting anything useful done today, and I'm whining on my LJ. (At least I'm using my LJ, and thus justifying my paid account.)

Maybe I should give up trying to write and go for a walk. The tulip trees are blooming, and my heart wants to know what the catalpas are up to. It's not like it could make me feel worse...

Comments

[helen-keeble.livejournal.com]

Post holiday blues?

A walk sounds like an excellent idea. Go and find some trees to watch for a bit.

[yhlee.livejournal.com]

I second Helen.

Also, I have finally gotten to one of your stories in The Emerald and Jade Champions, and am enjoying it muchly!

[ironhand.livejournal.com]

Take a walk. Let the conscious worries go for a while; they won't disappear, but if they do, so much the better.

As for pretty that has no intrinsic relationship to thin or blonde.

Also, isn't that what LJ is for? A sort of receptable of notices of semi-public interest, jottings, et cetera?