Stress

[daidoji_gisei]

So my life is kind of not good right now.

I had a very bad day at work yesterday, and then I came home to discover that my internet had been shut off by my provider because of an accounting error on their part. This made me unhappy, more so because the customer service person I was dealing with was very unhelpful--I had to dig for information on how to get the problem fixed, instead of them just telling me what I needed to know. Why was this so hard? I was clearly upset about having my account shut off, why not tell me what I needed to know to get it back on? I hope I'm never that bad at customer service at work, but I admit it's possible.

So there I was with a heart full of bad feelings and no way to unload it. With no internet I couldn't communicate with anyone, and stabbing myself repeatedly or consuming large amount of ice cream or gin, as attractive as those options were, really weren't options. The first is never really a good idea, and the next two are good things that I prefer to keep as good things. I finally settled on praying the rosary (Friday is the traditional day for praying the Sorrowful Mysteries, which I found deeply appropriate), fixing myself a tasty dinner, and spending the rest of the night rewatching Devil May Cry anime episodes. By the time I went to bed I was feeling much better. (I have friends who look down on my taste in entertainment, but as far as I'm concerned you can't go wrong with a mix of heartfelt human emotions and good choreography.)

My internet is back on this morning (obviously), but the things that were problems at work are still going to exist when I go back into work. I don't know how to fix this. It's tempting to spend the weekend rewatching every bit of DMC I own, with Advent Children for a chaser, but I have to write an L5R fiction this weekend, not to mention do large amounts of housework.

I know that by most measures I have a pretty good life, but objective facts like this are of no help when one's problems are non-objective.

Comments

[yhlee]

I'm sorry about the suckitude. *hugs*

[daidoji_gisei]

Thanks. At least I have internet again, and can go back to reading fountain pen posts on your journal. :-)

[yhlee]

Yeah, I'm having the darndest time getting good lighting to take good pen shots--we've had a spate of cloudy days, and my reliable backyard is all grown over with trees. I may have to try indoors with flash and see what that gets me. What's killing me is I have writing samples for all these pens, but currently no scanner.